Take a deep breath. It's going to be okay.

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I was just fired

I knew things were rough in the economy and the world, but I guess I was dubious to the reality of the immediate company I was working in. Immediately upon coming to work this morning as I usually do, coffee cup in hand (had I known I would have been let go I wouldn't have done my friday splurge on a five dollar grande latte). It's not unusual to be called into my bosses office. Our staff go in there for meetings all the time. But this time I was met with both my boss and the Human Resources director. My boss didn't say much, in fact he was clearly agitated and nervous.

I am experiencing extended grief and Joy at the same time.

My son's down syndrome diagnosis was not the end of the world for me. Generally speaking, the majority of the kids with down syndrome whom are born healthy and have good guidance and support, tend to live healthy, fulfilling lives (I feel lucky to have met many high functioning adults with Down syndrome!). The hardest part for me has been dealing with his premature & distressful birth and medical challenges. Every time I have to schedule or take him to a medical appointment, I have a reoccurring episode of post-traumatic stress disorder.

The traumatazing experience of my first born with Down Syndrome

One thing I'll never forget is the utter despair I felt. I've had friends and relatives die -once even in my own presence. But I'll never forget the pain I felt that day my wife informed me of the diagnosis of congenital heart disease and Down Syndrome. It was unbearable. To me, a man who loves travel, adventure, and being with friends, my son's diagnosis was worse than a death sentence. It was an infinite life sentence. It was a death of everything I loved and enjoyed. It was the reality of a sudden serious change of events.

Copyright ©2011 Jeff Abbott